happy fucking jan, 1st. i really didnt want to be alone tonight but i got grounded. . .i wanted to be getting drunk . . .so that i wouldnt be thinking about how this was the aniversery of my house fire and how i was homeless and lost everything a year ago today. . .and most of all how my best friend hates me now and if ur reading this i miss u so very much.. . . .. . . . . . . . . gosh i wish i was wasted .